TRYING TO LOSE

They said you were in love again,

Is it another of your fancy medicines?

I see you by the river almost everyday,

You look terrible, tell me how've you been?

Remember you once had a black guitar?

That you sold for a couple of bills.

Do you regret selling out your dreams,

Or do you cherish taking those pills?

I don't wanna gatecrash your brains,

No, that's not what I do anymore.

I heard the songs that put glitter on you,

But I like the songs that you wrote before.

What are you trying to lose so bad,

To gather all things that make you sad?

What are you trying to gift yourself,

Against my photos on your shelf?

You show yourself among friends at day,

I wonder if they know you at night.

Where's your pride when you're played,

You said you'd fight the good fight.

All those pretty face that surround you,

I don't see why they should cause guilt.

I'm glad that you're tucked in comfort,

In the dream palace that you built.

Its a lousy day here, its a cloudy day,

Did your ignorance condense in the skies?

Mommy told me about this earlier,

I guess this is how I had to realise.

What are you trying to lose so bad,

To gather all things that make you sad?

What are you trying to gift yourself,

Against my photos on your shelf?

-Karan Ghosh